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well, i gave it the ol' college try today, playing for a solo show at the i-5 in downtown L.A......buuuuuuut, i got snuffed....oh yeah, we're talkin' fucked in the drive-thru..it was a blood bath massacre alright. you can almost SEE me savoring my last moments on earth (above, far left) beh, whadya gonna do? james' pair of 7's took my pair of 3's in an all in bet. but, you know what? i'm actually o.k. with it. i thought i would be all upset about 'losing.' you see....i come from a family of 7, and you guessed it, i was the baby....and when my siblings pulled out a box from our mountain of milton bradley games in the basement wash room....my heart would just sink.

i hated the competition....

and you know why?
because 9 outta 10 times, i lost.

but, this 'game' was different.

i feel like i won.
because i beat myself...

i could've easily folded....given myself all sorts of excuses why i shouldn't even take the chance in the first place.

so, yeah,
i met some pretty cool people, learned about a game i actually enjoy playing now(??), and can say i was involved in something far and away from ordinary.

yup....i guess i'm a happy loser.


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Jul. 10th, 2006 12:20 am (UTC)
I think you should have worn sunglasses.
Certainly nothing to hang your head about, the crowd was a lot bigger when it started.
Jul. 10th, 2006 12:35 am (UTC)
aaaaaw, thanks...
and it's sooooo funny you mentioned the whole shades thing...cuz, i noticed that, too! (i actually C O U N T E D how many people wore them) THAT, and the fedora action!! what is this, a pissing match??? HAHAHAHA *sigh* yah yah, we all bring our little lucky charms to the table.

and for me, the pink theme sucked, obviously.
Jul. 10th, 2006 12:23 am (UTC)
are you still interested in the art:21 videos?
the girl that wanted them never emailed me back-
let me know-
if you are interested just send your address to:
melissa (at) moustacheridesyarn (dot) com
Jul. 10th, 2006 12:39 am (UTC)
how much again?
do you do paypal? if not, i'll cut you a check..

send to:

baby smith
2450 shields st.
la crescenta, ca. 91214

and what was she thinking anyway??????

Jul. 10th, 2006 03:31 am (UTC)
how would you feel about a swap?
paper scraps-anything--
odd bits of things you don't want anymore..
i'd rather have a creative suprise than money:)
Jul. 10th, 2006 03:10 am (UTC)
What a good sport you are! Okay, so maybe ya didn't make the cut...BUT you're still a winner at heart. So WHO CARES if ya lost the measly poker game? It means absolutely nuthin about your talent. Let's just say may the most talented be the first ones to get outta the game. Perhaps this wasn't your route to expose your brilliant art...cuz it's waitin for ya out there somewhere. Girl, there are betta things to come!!

your groupie,

Madison ;p
Jul. 10th, 2006 04:55 pm (UTC)
such a support system, you are!!!! thank you for being such a great friend and telling me what you know i should hear...that just means the world to me!!!

i had a cleansing cry yesterday, flushed out the old system....now i'm ready for the next challenge!!
Jul. 10th, 2006 04:02 am (UTC)
omigod, it turns just like THAT!
I am so bummed we won't be playing against each other in the finals. However, I'm sending you an evite to Friday night poker at my house. And, I love your collages, found stuff, books, poetry, all of it.
that's what was so frustrating for me every time somebody got killed at my game. We'd all say, "which one's yours?" and then, "Awww, we love that piece!"
That solo show is coming for you. I know it!
And, you are incredibly gracious and reflective about the whole thing.
Jul. 10th, 2006 04:48 pm (UTC)
Re: omigod, it turns just like THAT!
oooH!!! i wish you could've been in my rounds...you're such a sweetheart to say such kind things. i appreciate the invite, although i won't be able to make it... :P i'm sure you'll make it through to the next round, though. i'll be plugging for ya! (the blinds are getting so BiG!!! i ran outta chips in NO time...so, my advice....fold while you can if you don't have strong pockets!!!)

Jul. 10th, 2006 05:32 am (UTC)
hey, B!

good for you for learning a new thing and not getting hung up on "winning" and all that muck. i know i could never do what you did! yep. i would be a dern deer in the headlights at a poker match!

Jul. 10th, 2006 05:00 pm (UTC)
well, i won't say i wasn't upset, but i tried to find the positives, ya know? and you SO could've done what i did...you don't give yourself near enough credit GiRL!!!

and i can't wait to hear about this new yawk trip of yours?!?! i'll try to call before you head to mon's..

i love you sweet kimmy.
Jul. 10th, 2006 09:44 pm (UTC)
i hit a weird button and i think i lost my first reply, so here goes number two! yahyahyah! i can't wait to talk to you. i'm gonna wrap up a couple emails and log off just incase ;-)

i'm teaching tonight 8 (leave here 7:30-ish) til 10-ish, then home. glad you're two hrs earlier than me so you don't have to live my wack hours to phone.

Jul. 10th, 2006 06:05 am (UTC)
i think you look awesome and you fought like a winner.....

seems like it was as fun time so you can't lose ;)
Jul. 10th, 2006 05:08 pm (UTC)
it WAS fun, i'll give it that..something different. and leave it to mat to come up with an innovative twist involving poker and art...it's so crazy-it's genius!
Jul. 10th, 2006 12:20 pm (UTC)
Well you can always walk away knowing that you picked up a new skill from the experience - you now know how to play Texas Hold 'Em!
Jul. 10th, 2006 05:14 pm (UTC)
yeah, and i'll teach you to play...now, if we could JUST get jozee to play like all those other dogs in the paintings, we'd be set!!! (hell, she already knows how to post the 'blinds.' pa dum pum)
Jul. 10th, 2006 07:09 pm (UTC)
cheers, lady. you've got a beautiful attitude! :D
Jul. 10th, 2006 08:33 pm (UTC)
heh...well...nothin' worse than a soar loser.
or is it sour looser?
baah..either way, i'm pretty sure both are a bad thing. ;D
Jul. 10th, 2006 11:26 pm (UTC)
I really like your work!
may I add you so that I can observe what you do?...
Jul. 11th, 2006 12:01 am (UTC)
how sweet...
add away...i'll add you back!
Jul. 11th, 2006 12:08 am (UTC)
fine, fine!...
(I hope you do post most of what you produce)

Jul. 12th, 2006 01:08 pm (UTC)
everyone so serious'

i dont think ive ever really understood the true appeal of card games
Jul. 12th, 2006 03:08 pm (UTC)
yah...that's serious 'poker face' alright. guess having a solo show on the line can wipe a smile right off your face..lucky for me, i can smile again. ;D

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