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mama mia

probably my favorite photograph of mom and me to date, circa 1967 (she looks SO happy)

had a nice chat with mom today. she'd been giving me those cursory guilt ridden phone messages for weeks now, so i finally caved in and rang her up. for those who don't know me that well, i HAAAAAATE phones. with a PASSiON.....always have, and probably always will. it doesn't matter how close i am to a person, i just loathe putting that fucking contraption next to my face.

but, today was different.

for whatever reason, mom and i got on the subject of death. normally, that would be the furthest from our thoughts, as we're both pretty laid back, and we're constantly joking with each other - something i've always cherished about our relationship.

we spoke candidly about funerals and wakes we had attended and how uncomfortable we felt....whether we should touch the deceased while we're saying our good-byes, etc. i'm amazed how much my mom's teaching me at this point in our lives. i've learned much more, i'd say, than in my formative years.

but, even with all this talk of death and dying, we managed to laugh. i told her i'd be the one bawling my eyes out and jumping on her casket as it makes its decent...screaming at the top of my lungs....'NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!'

actually, i think she was half laughing, half crying....but, i'm still glad i said it.


Mar. 30th, 2007 10:40 pm (UTC)
baby smith,

Don't feel badly about not liking phones. I do not like talking on the phone either. I would much rather talk to someone in person. People look at me funny because I don't have or use a cell phone. I don't want one!

Also I think its good to talk to your family and friends about funerals, death, etc. I think such a discussion can be good. It can open up a lot of communication about subjects that you might not normally have a chance to talk about.

Thats a nice baby picture.

Mar. 31st, 2007 01:23 am (UTC)
i'm consoled, knowing it must be an 'artist' thing....more and more, i'm realizing it's o.k.....to be alone, and o.k. with it, yah?

i have a cell phone.....but, i rarely answer it!

and it was so cathartic to chat with my mom about death....don't think we ever had, really. i cried a good cleansing cry afterward, it was good..

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