i know i'm sick when i can't even summon the strength to get into the studio. the very thought of it has exhausted me, of late. exercising, socializing, and sleeping less than 9 hours a day have become brutal chores for me....

but, the lack of passion in the studio has bothered me most. i LiVE for zen moments as an artist....these are times when alcohol seems watered down, sex seems pointless, food...tasteless.

so, when i lose THAT part of myself, aside from health, relationships and daily obligations.....i REALLY get scared. because that's what defines me, at least at this point in my life.....

it's where my true 'happy' is.

i worked more today than i have in the last 2 weeks....so, hopefully baby's got her groove back...