?

Log in

No account? Create an account

Previous Entry | Next Entry

pammy

i've been looking through old photos the past several days....and for some reason all my 'pammy' photos are getting to me. like i can't look at them without crying rivers...memories are flooding my head.....like the time we went to 'skate-land' and i was crushed when she told me she was moving out of town for the first time to live with her ass-hole boyfriend, jim.....and when we rode the city bus together to go christmas shopping one year....and then the countless times she knocked at my window to let her in at 4am after a long night of working (and probably partying?) at the local bar......and it was pam that i slept with when thunderstorms scared the fuck out of me.

pammy's 10 years older than me, which probably explains why i idolized her from the get go. my mom always said they adopted a girl so pam would finally have a sister.....but deep down, i think they adopted ME so *i* could have a sister.....and to this day i'm forever grateful.

pammy's been through rough times.....abusive boyfriends, single motherhood, etc. but, she always seemed to bounce back. she'll forever be my hero and i love her dearly.

Comments

( 16 comments — Leave a comment )
amucci
May. 31st, 2007 10:36 pm (UTC)
Does she know how you feel?
artworkslive
May. 31st, 2007 10:38 pm (UTC)
oh, yeah.....we're close.....thank goddess.
circumambulate
May. 31st, 2007 11:08 pm (UTC)
awwww

I'm an adopted kid, too. One of the strange things about having a child is having an honest to goodness blood-relative. I am a child of my adoptive family in all ways, but it's just different. Life as a mammal, I guess.
artworkslive
May. 31st, 2007 11:40 pm (UTC)
i'm sure it's different, the whole blood thing......

funny, i only wanted a baby once (for about a 1/2 second) and only cuz my first husband wanted them so badly.....perhaps i'm breaking a chain?

you might like this community, btw....

http://community.livejournal.com/adoptees/
urgent_alchemy
Jun. 1st, 2007 12:22 am (UTC)
Awww. :D
artworkslive
Jun. 1st, 2007 02:59 am (UTC)
i double that!!!! ;D x2.
chatnoire
Jun. 1st, 2007 01:26 am (UTC)
My siblings are 1/2 siblings (i'm my mother's daughter, her second husband adopted me and I barely knew my father) - and that sister relationship is an amazing thing. It doesn't require blood, but there's something more....sisters are just something so special.

My sister and I are so close that she's going on the trip to paris with andy and I (on our anniversary).

I'm glad you've got that too with Pammy. (((hugs)))
artworkslive
Jun. 1st, 2007 02:11 am (UTC)
YEA....for sistuhs, blood or not! have fun in ol' pareeeeeeeee, and drink a wee for me....!!!
chatnoire
Jun. 1st, 2007 03:10 am (UTC)
We def. will. And We'll also see lots of art, and if I see something artworthy, I'll bring it back for you!

Still 4 months till we go, but yes...Paris!
inyourwarmarms
Jun. 1st, 2007 02:31 am (UTC)
Heartwarming story thank you for sharing.
artworkslive
Jun. 1st, 2007 02:36 am (UTC)
thank you fer listenin,' deary....

(Anonymous)
Jun. 3rd, 2007 12:39 am (UTC)
pammy
thanks, I needed that. And you are always welcome in my bed if there is a storm of any kind. I too am grateful. and teary love you soooo much, pammy
artworkslive
Jun. 4th, 2007 01:06 am (UTC)
Re: pammy
sweet pammy....you don't know HOW many tears i let go this week.....let's just say i'm severly dehydrated and could prolly water your garden with 'em. you mean SO much to me....you'll neeeeeeever quite know.

love you muchly X a billion (plus 2).
(Anonymous)
Jun. 3rd, 2007 03:35 am (UTC)
Hi B! Hi Pammy!

Kim here-

I am really glad to know Pam too... i'll always remember visiting her place, especially when you were staying there so much... remember when i rode my bike there? love the pamster, love the beckster. and fucking beautiful photo!!!! thanks for posting it.

kimster
artworkslive
Jun. 4th, 2007 01:21 am (UTC)
sweet kimma limma ding dong!!!!!!

i DO remember you riding your bike all the way out pammy way. your legs must've been throbbing!!!!!! and chances are, we prolly went to the local quickie mart, filling up on just enough chocolate to undo your hard work out!!!

but, it was WORTH iT, right?!!

and just so ya know, that was prolly THE best summer of my life...we were both together, unattached (from boy-Leez), and living life to a very dangerously full degree.

♥-b
(Anonymous)
Jun. 5th, 2007 05:09 am (UTC)
that was my best summer too!!! isn't life funny? what great times we had- remember getting milk crates from economart? was that the name of that mega grocery??? we had lots of chocolate milk and fortune cookies from that place! the aisles seemed to go on for miles. it was the first gigantic grocery in the area! i liked us being unattached and able to focus on our crazy dreams and projects... good reminder for me to be happy not to be so cluttered up any more!

k
( 16 comments — Leave a comment )