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day one.

day one of sobriety.
so far, so good.
i hope i can make it stick.

i knew this day would come eventually.
i'm scared to death.

but, the alternative is much, MUCH scarier.

i've always thought i could have one cocktail and be fine.
but, i can't.
i've always thought i could skip a day of drink.
but, i never did.
i could blame it on my family history.
but, i won't.

i'm trying to look at the positives....
just think of all the money we'll save.
i'll probably sleep better.
my liver won't explode.

so, i guess it's virgin drinks and o'douls for me now.
and maybe a little caffeine for good measure.

Comments

waggner
Aug. 24th, 2007 04:23 am (UTC)
Good for you! You made me think about it in my own life, and I may join you.
artworkslive
Aug. 24th, 2007 05:06 am (UTC)
goddess, i swear....that first step is a son-of-a-beeYOTCH, i tellya.

i'm just so tired of being tired, ya know? and it became such a crutch that i felt myself going down a path i might never return. and alcohol wasn't even making my body feel euphoric anymore. (i mean, what's the point, right?!!!) it grew into this unfilling ritual that eventually started to seep into and disrupt and control other areas of my life. addiction is one evil trap, it is. it was scaring the shit out of me...as well as my friends and family.

but, the one thing i did realize is, you and YOU alone are the only one that knows when to finally say when. just printing the words 'i may join you...' is a HUUUUUUUGE step. i'm so proud of you!!!

thanks for your support!
waggner
Aug. 24th, 2007 02:35 pm (UTC)
I agree with everything you are saying. I'm cutting down, and if that doesn't happen, I quit, no exceptions.
Thank you for posting this. I know it is not easy and it's great to see that not only are you not alone, but many of the comments are from people who have also gone through this.
artworkslive
Aug. 24th, 2007 08:53 pm (UTC)
well, i figure the risk is worth it, sharing things about myself. not only does it help me, it might help others.

i tried cutting back. but, i'm too weak. besides, i just knew my body had had enough. i could almost feel it shutting down.

good luck, whatever direction you decide to go....

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