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my dad and step mom came to visit this past weekend.....

although we haven't always been on good terms, i still love 'em......they're a part of my history and i cling to things familiar, so i guess i'm stuck with 'em. but, i have a love/hate relationship with my dad, and he knows it. i'm the youngest of five kids and always had this notion my parents would just somehow always be married forever.....unlike all my friend's parents, who divorced left and right in the late 70's and early 80's.

well, that disneyland wall came crashing down when i was about 14 when my mom and brother eric sat me down one night and said dad was moving out. some part of me resented him for breaking up our 'ozzie and harriet' existence. but, throughout the years i've come to realize my dad's position.....he was unhappy, for whatever reason, and decided to move on. he sacrificed for his family while he was married, like foregoing a corporate climbing career to avoid uprooting his family every few years, etc. so, i knew he had good intentions, at least PART of the time....

so, back to the present.....when i learned my dad was diagnosed last year with early stage alzheimer's it didn't shock me in the least. he's always been forgetful and slightly dingy in a way....and the family has always taken his 'fabricated stories' with a grain of salt. and to me, that was actually a large part of his charm. after all, i like a good story, whether it's true or not!!!

i took this handheld snapshot (above) in olvera st. this past saturday.....until this photo, i don't think i owned a picture of JUST dad and me. but, even though it's blurry, i loooooove it, cuz deep down i think we're ALL a bit foggy about our past and the memories that constantly fill our hearts and heads.....


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Feb. 12th, 2008 03:52 am (UTC)
I remember growing up, about half the kids I knew had divorced parents. It always had negative effects on the kids. Selfish 70's scene, I guess.

Anyway, it was great seeing you and Chuck at the opening! At social events, I'm usually the guy sitting next to the plant, not talking to anyone. But lots of friends showed up, and unfortunately I didn't get a chance to hang out with as many friends as I would have liked, like you guys and a few others. Me, mister popular? Hell no. Social events like that really take a lot out of me, and I'm still exhausted.
Feb. 12th, 2008 03:58 am (UTC)
oh, mister!!!

it was SO good seeing you....and i have pix to share, stay tuned...

believe me, i feel yer pain....i'd much rather be making art than playing the socialite role....it's SUCH a chore! but, we gotsta punch the clock, yah?
Feb. 13th, 2008 05:10 am (UTC)
it's actually a very sweet photo and i love it too.
Feb. 13th, 2008 11:30 pm (UTC)
aaaaaw, you're sweet. it was such a fleeting moment, i'm glad i caught it....
Feb. 17th, 2008 12:02 pm (UTC)
you must call and give me the details of the visit. did you know he called me? not fun, ah well---he said you guys were having a really good visit, I am glad. how was the bev? love you, pammy
Feb. 18th, 2008 02:21 am (UTC)
Re: daddy
heya sis,
yeah, i knew he called.....

we'll catch up via phone soon enough, i hope. :)
Mar. 24th, 2008 08:13 pm (UTC)
Amazing text..
thats it, man
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