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stopped by the goodwill store on my junk walk..
i used to always think i liked thrift stores because i'm cheap.
now i know better.

did this person donate this skirt because they lost 50 pounds and no longer want 'fat' clothes? or did they gain 50 pounds and not want to be reminded of their thinner, more socially acceptable self. did another person leave behind a men's dress shirt because it was no longer in fashion, or because it was their husband's, who just passed away?

i realized i'm on the hunt for something much bigger than a bargain. i want history. i want to be connected. i want to feel these people's stories by smelling the essence of perfume left behind, beholding the markings from everyday life.

many people ask where the name baby smith comes from..
it was the name given to me by the state of nebraska before i was adopted. although i've met a large part of my biological family and am deeply indebted to my adoptive family for taking me in..............

i'm still searching.


Jul. 16th, 2005 08:25 am (UTC)
oh thats sweet and sad too.. I had wondered why baby smith and now it makes sense, of course.

is the searching in thrift stores for someones history a way of looking for your history too?
Jul. 16th, 2005 07:00 pm (UTC)
yeah, i assumed 'baby smith' about 7 months ago, after much soul searching. and i've been wondering how to tell people about the shift..

i think i am searching for a little bit of history in all my thrift store outings. you know, it's weird, cuz i HAVE a history with my adoptive family, it's just not biological. i've always loved them and feel an incredible bond with them..but, it's just not completely settling. maybe if they had never told me i was adopted, i would've turned out differently. maybe not. i'm not complaining, and i wouldn't change my circumstance for the world. it's just one of those things that's hard to describe unless you've lived it.

on a side note..
still haven't gotten your entry..but, i'll cross my fingers for next week. i am SO looking forward to making your piece!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jul. 16th, 2005 10:34 pm (UTC)
Yes, i can understand what you are saying, tho ive not lived it myself, but it makes complete sense to me. Hope its something you get to feel sorted and settled with, even if its never quite settled.. if you get my drift.

And I cant believe my package hasnt arrived yet :( Hope its not got lost :( It was sent over a week ago now. Will keep everything crossed for mr postie to deliver on Monday! x
Jul. 16th, 2005 11:05 pm (UTC)
i'm just thinking it's an international thing..
sometimes it takes a little longer.
i'll let you know the millisecond it arrives in my hot little hands!!!
Jul. 17th, 2005 07:48 pm (UTC)
I GOT YOUR ENTRY!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just checked my box this morn, so it must've arrived late yesterday!!!!!
i'm SO excited!!
your picture's adorable. it is kinda wild how you get just one picture, multiplied like a billion times.. what if the picture really stunk, then you'd be stuck with a billion stinky pictures! i'll pop in the tape prolly tonight, when i have some quiet time. thank you..this means so much to me, really..
Jul. 17th, 2005 08:10 pm (UTC)
Re: I GOT YOUR ENTRY!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh fab baby fab!! yeah i dont know why you cant get multiple photos anymore in these booths. You could have had 4 normal size pics or those teeny ones which I thought might be more fun!

cant wait to see the finished goodies too:) xx
Jul. 18th, 2005 02:16 am (UTC)
i just tried to put your MiNi cassette in my tape player and it's TOO BiG!!!!! and we thought dvds would be difficult??!!!! is there a way you could mail your tape player to me (i'll pay for shipping and send it back to you) either that or you could send me a regular cassette sized tape with the same entry recited. oh!!! i'm so sorry this happened..i just had no idea. i figured that sort of thing was standard.

if you wind up sending another tape, go ahead and recite more than one entry if you want. i'll probably make 1 or 2 pieces per person..

lemme know what you plan to do and i'll go from there! thanks so MUCH!!!!!!!
Jul. 18th, 2005 11:36 am (UTC)
oh bleedin 'ell!! thats outrageous my dear! I dont have access to any other tape machine to send you a different tape. id be happy to send you the tape player (well, I have to ask my son as its his!) if you wanna pay for it! Unless theres some other answer? oh shit what a bummer :(
Jul. 18th, 2005 02:19 pm (UTC)
you could try to voicemail it in..
i'll email you right now!!!!
Jul. 18th, 2005 08:09 pm (UTC)
check your email woman!
Jul. 18th, 2005 08:46 pm (UTC)
i JUST emailed you back..
i got the file, but i can barely hear your sweet voice!!!

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