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rejected, but not DE-jected..

in fact, i'm so determined, i won't rest until the purse project receives the exposure it deserves. it's funny, i'm not even really that upset. (aside from this slight lump in my throat) but, i know....i just have a feeling deep down....like if not here, then maybe there. if they didn't get it, maybe someone else WiLL. i think i'm mostly upset because i wanted to SEE it come to life...to thank all the people who gave me precious pieces of themselves for this project...by SHOWiNG them what they helped me create....it lives, it breathes, it vibrates with soul...and i just want to share that with people. does a falling tree really make noise if there's no one there to hear it?

thank you miles, for being a true friend and helping me mentally prepare yesterday. i needed that, more than you'll ever know..

i've had some pretty incredible highs lately, and i'm not about to let this slow me down. for all i know, they didn't want the installation because of the profanity (in which case, i think they missed the point) maybe they didn't have the space for it. maybe it didn't mesh with the other installations. i'd seriously have issues if it came down to poor craftsmanship or execution, as i've honed my techniques and feel quite confident in my abilities.

i guess this is the time to say..
i'll just pick myself up,
dust myself off,
and do it all over again.


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Sep. 9th, 2005 10:42 pm (UTC)
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} it's just meant to be somewhere else! it WILLL come to life! you?? poor craftmanship?????? no no no no no. I can't wait for the big news about getting into 2389423948 other exhibits! It's going to happen!! It's too amazing not to!

xoxoxoox ♥
Sep. 9th, 2005 10:52 pm (UTC)
you are THE best!!!!!
had a good cleansing cry...lost the battle, but not the WAR!!!!
(picture me putting on braveheart make-up now)
(insert 'i will survive' music here)

hey....since everybody wants to know your secrets..hee hee...how do you make that heart thingy at the end of your posts?

ooooooh...and guess what's coming to your nearest postal facility?????? the postal camboard is making it's way across the nation as i type!!!!!!!!!! i hope la crescenta saves a few for your clinton folks!!!!!
Sep. 9th, 2005 10:56 pm (UTC)
you could never lose the war with your art!
hey i want some braveheart make up!

the heart is simple, my dear! type "& hearts ;" all together without the "" or spaces! :) ♥!

ooooh I was just telling my po they should see a new camera coming their way!!!

i'm writing you an email right now :)
Sep. 9th, 2005 11:07 pm (UTC)
♥ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sep. 9th, 2005 10:46 pm (UTC)
Aww, Becky, I'm so sorry!
But I love what you said:

it lives, it breathes, it vibrates with soul...and i just want to share that with people.

And I know that you will! I think you're so right, it might really have come down to just space issues or something trivial like that. I wish they'd clarified that in their letter! But you have such a great attitude, not to mention such incredible talent, that I have *no* doubt that it will come to fruition! And, in the meantime, we'll get you tons of vino and foo-foo drinks tonight... hey, I'm more than happy to contribute to the effort in any way I can! :o)
Sep. 9th, 2005 10:55 pm (UTC)
Re: Aww, Becky, I'm so sorry!
sloppy drunk....that'll solve ALL the world's problems, i tellya.
that, and cheese.

see ya tonight!
i promise, i won't be a debbie downer!!!!!! HAHAHAHA!
you're SUCH a sweetheart and always say the most genuine, supportive things..
Sep. 9th, 2005 10:46 pm (UTC)
they will be kicking themselves one day for this.

that said, part of what you do is putting yourself out there for possible rejection and you'v ehadnled it VERY Well.

we have faith in you!!!

Sep. 9th, 2005 11:04 pm (UTC)

rejection's only negative if you start believing it and turning it inward...i had to suck that one up many years ago. i actually think rejections have made me stronger, because you either get things handed to you in life, or you push yourself to be the very best at what you do, more dedicated, focused, less flash in the pan..... so people have no choice but to take notice. it's the THRiLL of the challenge that keeps me going, really.

see, you made me feel instantly better. energized. i love that about Lj. such a great support!!!!!
Sep. 9th, 2005 11:05 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry they're losers. It's such a fun, unique project... can't wait to read the post that talks about your acceptance into a show!
Sep. 9th, 2005 11:11 pm (UTC)
you are TOOOOOOOOOOOO sweet, my dear.
oh, and i'll be shouting from the roof tops when i get into the next show. we're talking ALL CAPITAL LETTERS AND A LOT OF THESE - !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sep. 10th, 2005 12:15 am (UTC)
This is not rejection, it is a better opportunity opening it's door for you.
Sep. 10th, 2005 04:49 pm (UTC)
Re: pammy
that is SO simply put, and SO full of love.
thanks pammy..
Sep. 10th, 2005 12:26 am (UTC)

well, you know how i see it? - it's their loss. you'll find a much BETTER exhibition more WORTHY of such a GREAT project! hmph!

Sep. 10th, 2005 04:52 pm (UTC)
it means so much to me that you guys are behind this..
your voice WiLL be heard, and not just by me, i know it!!!!!!!!!
thanks for all your kind words and support..
Sep. 10th, 2005 12:53 am (UTC)
"in fact, i'm so determined, i won't rest until the purse project receives the exposure it deserves."


i'm so proud of you and to be a part of the People Purse On Project.
i have absolute faith in this project and you b.
those folks are going to regret missing their opportunity to be a part of this.

i am ..i am so proud of you b.here's a shot of tequila for that lump in your throat,here's a {HUG},and here's a toast to you and the People Purse On Project and all those who ARE a part of it and to those who WILL be a part of it by being exposed to it!

you are inspired and an inspiration! an unstoppable force!

it is inevitable that you and your work will get the exposure you deserve.

more hugs and tequila for you!!!!
Sep. 10th, 2005 04:58 pm (UTC)
i'm so proud of you..

fuck..my eyes are gonna be ALL puffy today.

you jumped on board and gave me my very first people purse on submission...you've been so supportive and such an inspiration TO ME!!! i can't thank you enough..

and my head's still spinning from the 'quila, my dear drinkin' buddy!!!!
Sep. 10th, 2005 03:59 am (UTC)
my mouth is hanging open!

((((((((biiiiiig huuuuuugs)))))))

i'm never very good at comforting words because i never want to minimize one's situation, but i will say this...

do i believe in your project? YOU BET!
am i proud to be a part of it? ABSOLUTELY!
do i believe in you? NO QUESTION!
Sep. 10th, 2005 05:00 pm (UTC)
your words and support are like a big giant hug..

i guess i feel in a way i let you guys down, even though i haven't given up..
i'll keep trying, and when it does show, it'll be all the sweeter because of this little set back!
Sep. 10th, 2005 05:46 am (UTC)
DO NOT give up on that installation (not that you are but.. this is what my gut is screaming so I had to type it up).. it's an AMAZING concept, I lust to see the piece in real life and it's only a matter of time before you find a space DESERVING of it. Seriously. x
Sep. 10th, 2005 05:02 pm (UTC)
i like your gut!!!!!!!!!!
that just really made my whole day, week, month..
Sep. 10th, 2005 06:22 am (UTC)
hey, all of them up there^^^^^^ have said what Id like to say - this isnt the exhibition for you at this time but another time, another place will be the time for you. dont give up girl xx
Sep. 10th, 2005 05:04 pm (UTC)
oooooooh, i could never give up on this one.
it's a timeless piece that will always be near and dear to my heart, for so many reasons.
and people WiLL hear that lovely british hum of yours...i'm convinced!!!!!
Sep. 10th, 2005 07:05 am (UTC)

Mannnn.... that is truely too bad for them.

Just thinking about the idea of your project I get goosebumps. I know that just walking into a room filled with your idea would really give me chills and feel good.
Sep. 10th, 2005 05:10 pm (UTC)
you just say the kindest things..
just the fact you said you would get goose bumps gave ME goose bumps. hee hee.
i'm overwhelmed with all the support and love everyone's shown.
it just warms my heart..

Sep. 12th, 2005 05:28 pm (UTC)

pfffft! if they dont want it, they dont DESERVE it. this is one of the most fascinating exhibits ever concieved, and if they can't find a place for it, well.. than i dont think it's a show you'd really want to be a part of?
whatever their reasoning, they're missing out. this piece has HEART. it's got soul. it's got passion and love packaged in perfect purses.

if you need help finding/applying to new places, i'm all about the help n' research :)
Sep. 12th, 2005 06:35 pm (UTC)
giiiiiiiiiirl...i wish you lived up here...
and that

yah, the sting is pretty much healed on this one. and my wheels are spinning, all the time. my next step is to burn more cds and just blanket the town with proposals. i've got a few venues that i'm excited about..places where i walked in and could really visualize this installation. so, in no way have i given up!!! NEVER!!!!!!

and any other venues you can dig up would be GREATLY appreciated. you're a research QUEEEEEEEN...and i'm a total sponge...perfect marriage!!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!
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